To all you dream chasers: you church planters, non profit organization founders, business starters, small time bloggers, and someday-hopefully authors. I see you. I’m with you. And I’m wondering if the thrill of your new venture has faded. Perhaps you’re stuck in the grind of everyday monotonous work. The “why” behind your dream has gotten buried in the midst of all that needs to be done. You never realized it would be this hard. You’re feeling a little isolated, unsupported, and a lot overwhelmed now that the “honeymoon stage” is over. Sound familiar? It does to me.
It’s almost Darling Little Life’s 2 year anniversary (hooray!)! I realize that this isn’t going to be the most lighthearted post to celebrate. But it’s honest.
And if I’ve learned anything from you, darling reader, it’s that you’d rather have vulnerability than an image of perfection in this space.
I’ll quickly recap my blogging journey thus far. For the first year my only goal was to commit to a year of consistent blogging simply as a quiet small hobby. I had no idea if I’d even enjoy it, but it was a little dream in my heart and an opportunity to serve the Lord. After 1 year I still didn’t have a clue as to what I was doing, but I loved it, and decided to continue.
I started off halfheartedly committed to the blog in year two as we were new parents. We made much time for snuggling darling girl, but found little time for much else. ( I don’t regret that in the least!). Then about the 6 months ago, I started getting more serious about investing in this blogging dream, especially in regards to networking on Instagram. And the more I delved in to things, with it came added feelings of pressure and the need to justify this space (really only to myself) with growth in views, followers, and some return on the investment I had put into Darling Little Life.
In the midst of pursing this dream, I began to feel a little lost.
Somewhere along the way it became about me, and what I could do. If I could only just push harder and work at it more, it would all be worth it. I felt insignificant in the rat race of Instagram and the over saturated blogging world. And I began questioning whether or not it was worth it at all– was I wasting time, effort, resources? I realized that this blogging ministry dream had become a battle I was fighting alone through self sufficiency rather than through God’s equipping power …
Isn’t it ironic how, if you’re not careful, you can get wrapped up in selfishness even (perhaps, especially) in ministry?
God started a work in my heart and I began seeking Him especially in regards to serving Him through this space. With the support of family, friends, and even recently a sweet little community of other Christian bloggers I’ve started to feel less discouraged and more excited, even in the midst of the everyday work it takes. I’m wrestling through my self sufficiency, pride, and perfectionism. I’m learning the balance of working towards growth and excellence with healthy boundaries.
“Whenever people ask me for tips on how to persevere in the work we’re called to on social media, public ministry, business, or as an author/speaker, I always start here:
1. Choose who your most important audience is. If it’s Jesus, the pressure to perform or produce won’t rule you.
2. Build a team (family, community, friends, employees, partners…) around you that holds you accountable and cheers you on.
3. Live the words you write, and practice in secret what you hope to be revealed in the spotlight.”
I’m entering into year three of darling little life with big goals, but most importantly, this mindset:
Hold on to the dream loosely, and cling to Christ dearly.
“But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God.” Acts 20:24